Day #6

I have wanted to give up many times! I had a good feeling this was going to be hard, but it's HARDER than imagined. I just cold turkey changed my diet...I can't have barely anything.

I started feeling tons more energy by wed (day #3) so day 4 went smooth and day 5 was a little tougher. I did cheat now and then. My husband and I went to The Cheesecake Factory on day 4 and I ordered a Turkey burger No bun, it had sauted onions which is an ok for me. I had a salad and green beans with it. The only bad thing I ate was the dressing. Oh, and 2 french fries from his plate..I couldn't help it. Today, was a REALLY bad day, I had 2 pieces of pizza...but I only ate 2 and they were small and I got full, (I could easily eat 3-4). I had a bite of a blueberry muffin the other day too. So not totally STRICT as planned but MUCH better.

So on day #5 I was in the bathroom with an upset stomach and a lot of gas and cramps. (I have Crohns' Disease) So, now I am trying to think if this diet is even a good idea for me. Doesn't lettuce and veggies cause gas? Luckily I am seeing my GI doc this wed. to ask him 1,000,000 questions.

I was looking thru my recipe book and started writing down more things I needed to buy to make more things to get me thru this week. I got very emotional. This is NOT easy. I do not have a food processor, I do not have a decent whole foods store or farmers market close to me, and it's a little TOO expensive to have to continue to buy more things. I have no clue how to make half the things in this book. I feel like I can't win.

So what if I just really watch what I eat, and cut my sizes down buy half or more? I want to go back to the gym (that I am paying $60 a month for) but my feet hurt so bad, I can't walk on the tredmill. I can't lift weights because after a few reps my muscles cramp up and hurt. So again, I CAN'T WIN!

The ONLY thing keeping me going today is that I have more energy and I weighed myself...I have lost over 8lbs but not 100% sure how much, since I didn't weigh myself on Day #1 and I didn't use the same scale. I will know for sure on wed at Dr. office! But still I have lost and that is all that matters to me.

So any help and support and prayers are much needed!! I need a personal chef. I wish I could, I so would!

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